Hey loves. I been busy trying to get my life back on track. Jobs around here are amazingly hard to find, and work on the internet isn’t paying enough. I start my life counceling on July 7th, and I must say that I am pretty damn nervous. Its really hard for me to open up to a complete stranger, especially in person!! I am just nervous that my counselor is going to say I’m crazy and unfixable =P

Any tips from fellow counseling attenders, on how to open up and relax?

I read this news article about a new trend for female babies. High heels. I find this really revolting. Babies are being sexualized. At least it seem’s that way to me. I think that women have “high” standards to live up to, physically. I seen a “bratz” doll that had a see through-ish dress on, that exposed everything but thin underwear and a push up bra. That’s the image young girls are getting about what’s “sexy” and what’s “appropriate”? Woman don’t need to dress like complete whores to be sexy. And i honor every woman who thinks the same. Im not super skinny, and im not tan, and I have pimples and stretch marks…and damn…I’m comfortable in my skin. I don’t need to impress anyone.

Does anyone else think that high heels and skimpy dolls are a bad influence to young girls?

I have been super tired, and super stressed out after some serious shit happened over the weekend. It’s so weird how you can wake up one day after a big situation and feel 100% different, as a person. I seem to have no energy or will power. after losing my best friend and lover, things just seem to have hit rock bottom. theres one problem after another. it never seems to end!

*kisses